Day 5: Things you want to say to an ex

So...I don't really have many guys that I consider to be Ex's. My fun little dating flings usually didn't last long enough to be anything but flings. So now the hard part is to figure out which Ex to say this too.
So...I'm not going to use any names(and don't ask who it is) but this is what I would say to my Ex if I had the chance:

First off, at one point I did like you. You are a pretty great guy. We just didn't work out, and that's ok. On my part, there are no negative feelings or hatred, that would be stupid. It really was fun being around you, but I probably should have warned you from the start that I'm not good with relationships. And I think part of the fact is because I don't really want to be. Its hard for me to fall for someone. And I guess as great as you are, I just couldn't really fall for you. So I know that it was my fault that we didn't really work, but at the same time I think it was your fault for not trying. I get scared, I get overwhelmed, and I feel like I have to try harder to be perfect. I have trust issues in relationships. I have this deal where I feel like because I've been used, cheated on, and lied to that some how I'm damaged goods, I'm not good enough and possibly even unlovable. I'm very skeptical with the word "love" in the first place. It's probably incredibly obvious that I am emotionally unavailable. I really think I could have tried harder...but I don't think I really wanted to. Which was completely unfair to you. And I'm sorry. In all honesty, I haven't exactly figured out why you liked me in the first place. But I remember how we got along, at first, and how things were fun, but once more serious feelings got dragged into the picture, I think that's when I began to withdrawal. Seriousness scares me in relationships. Even in ones where I have been in love, it just scares me. It had nothing to do with you. You just happened to be one of the guys who wanted something more when I couldn't do that. And I know that we don't talk any more, which kinda sucks, cause I did enjoy the conversations where you made me think, but I hope that you've been in a better relationship since me. And I hope that whatever you are doing with your life, you are happy. And I'm really sorry that I couldn't really commit anything serious. But at the same time, you just weren't the guy who was meant to help me through those issues. And that's ok. Because I'm doing fine, and that guy that is meant to be there for me will eventually get to do that for me. Until then, I really hope you find your happiness. I'm waiting for mine.