Day 18: What has been the most difficult thing you have had to forgive?

The most difficult thing I've ever had to forgive has been the girl who stabbed me in the back and the guy who broke my heart and my self for letting it happen. I mean, sure it happened in high school but I was still depressed over it for two and half years. It was pretty big to me. What happened was there was this boy who I really really liked and one night he almost kissed me, I told my best friend at the time and she decided to go after him, three days later they were dating. It KILLED me. Seriously, worst time of my life. I mean not only did I not feel good enough, but it just kept getting worse. After a while, this guy kept saying he needed me as a friend, that I was his best friend, but he still didn't want to date me. But he needed me around. And it killed me being so close yet so far away from the one thing that I wanted. But I was still only his best friend. And I was never going to be anything more. After two and a half years, with the help of a friend, I was finally able to forgive her, I was able to forgive that guy for breaking my heart over and over again and pretty much telling me every single time that he would never love me as much as her, and finally I had to forgive my self for doing all the stupid things I did and for having poor judgement and for believing that I'd never be good enough.