Wednesday, April 18, 2012

Day 16: What are your 5 greatest accomplishments?

1.) This one might sound lame, but one of them is not dropping out of college. After my first semester I wanted out. I just didn't think that I could do it anymore. I felt so discouraged and stupid. I just didn't believe that college was for me. I wanted to just give up. But I didn't. And next year will be my senior year and hopefully I'll graduate next spring. I consider that an accomplishment.

2.) I some how have influenced some of my younger friends, in a positive way. They look up to me as a role model. Which means that I live my life is such a way that people are inspired by me. And I guess knowing that I have actually made a difference in someone's life makes me feel accomplished. Like I'm someone important. Like my life matters in some crazy way.

3.) I've faced some fears of mine. Some of them have been more emotional. Such as believing in love. Love is something that has always terrified me. I've figured out the direction I want to go in the future. I was always afraid that I wouldn't become anything...like I'd just become another face in a crowd...someone with no purpose. But I've realized that my future is waiting for me, and it will be great. And this one is more of a physical fear, but I finally held a spider. Well it was actually a tarantula. And I was so scared of it. But I did it. I mean, I used to not even be able to look at the thing...then I held her. And I think that facing fears is a huge accomplishment. 

4.) I've actually learned how to cook without burning anything. That is such a great accomplishment for me. I mean when I first started cooking I burned everything! I just couldn't cook. I mean I still burn some things, but I don't do it as often. And that is a great thing. I mean I will never become an expert. But I'm good enough that maybe one day my future husband will come home to a dinner that I made.

5.) Facing each new day. I think that every day that I wake up and get out of bed is an accomplishment. I'm not saying that my life is terrible, life is just plain difficult for everyone. And that anyone who chooses to face it is accomplishing something. If I didn't get out of bed every morning I would have never accomplished anything. And lately, life has really been kicking my ass. And in all honesty, sometimes I have no motivation to get out of bed and do anything. And some days I just want to be left alone. Sometimes I just want to scream and cry because life is unfair. But that's when I realize that I need to face the world. Life is a beautiful mess. It wont be easy, but it's easier if you don't have to face it alone. And when I get out of bed and simply live my life, I'm accomplishing something. Maybe it's something little, like not burning a hot pocket or holding a spider or something even bigger like continuing my education or making a real difference in someone's life. So I believe that taking on what ever life has to give you is the biggest accomplishment anyone can make. I mean, how can you accomplish anything if you don't try?

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