Day 7: A photo of an animal that you'd love to keep as a pet

 I would love to have a Black Panther. Its adorable as a baby.

 And beautiful full grown. I've always love Black Panthers.

And that's probably why I adore my baby kitty. He's a little panther at heart. =) 

Day 6: A song to match your mood

Hmmmm...I'm trying to figure out my mood. Right at this moment I'm tired, bored, stressed out, slightly depressed, and I kinda just want to be left alone. So...now I need a song to match this mood.
I think I have the song that matches this mood. Lost by Katy Perry...pretty much sums up my feelings right now.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4kvD-QN_0LE

"Have you ever been so lost
Known the way and still so lost
Caught in the eye of a hurricane
Slowly waving goodbye like a pageant parade
So sick of this town pulling me down"

Yeah...that feels like me right now. 

Day 5: What makes you different from everyone else?

This one is difficult. I'm know I'm not normal, but then again who is? Its one of those things where I'm human and I understand that. I'm not perfect. I'm vain. I'm goofy and serious all at the same time. I'll make mistakes. I'll do good things too. I follow my heart instead of my head. I'll have my moments where I actually do think. I can be aggressive and assertive. I go for what I want. But those are human traits. We all have a personality. And I could say that is what makes me different. But that's a given. Every body has those human traits that when put together and used it makes them their own individual person. And that could be why I'm different. But I don't think that's why. I have the human traits that everyone else does. The compassion, the irrationality, the impulsiveness, the obsessing, and the vulnerability. I'm a liar, and a cheater, and I'm manipulative. But I'm also caring, and understanding, and I'm passionate. I think what makes me different from everyone else is that I recognize who I am, and I keep learning my strengths and my weaknesses and I keep trying to be better and when I fail I keep going. I'm human and what makes me different is because I admit to it.    

Day 4: Your favorite photograph of your best friend

 So my best friend is my little brother. And I just love how crazy awesome he is.

 I'm not sure if I have a favorite picture of him.

 He's pretty much crazy awesome in every picture he takes!

 Even if he's just a little baby.

Or a 15 year old boy.

He is just all around amazing...and my best friend!

Day 3: Your idea of the perfect first date

I think the idea of the perfect date is more of a feeling. When you first get picked up by the person and you open the door and you see them and you get all fluttery and nervous. And as you walk towards their car you wonder how this night is going to go. You don't want to do anything stupid but at the same time you want it to be memorable. And it has to be fun, no matter what you do, you never want to be boring. And when you're with them all you can do is smile. And you learn more about them. By seeing a movie or cooking together. Figuring out what makes a person them. Personality is something I like to learn on a first date. It doesn't matter what we're doing, just as long as it really expresses us. So that we can find out if there's ever going to be a second date. My idea of a perfect first date is pretty much figuring out if we're compatible, if he's going to give me butterflies every time I see him. If I'm able to be crazy or weird and it doesn't matter. The perfect first date should make a person happy and feel that connection. So like I said its more of a feeling.

Day 2: Your favorite movie

I love this movie! I think its my favorite Angelina Jolie role. I would love to play that role. Its a really powerful role. And some people joke that I'm sociopath anyways. ;) Probably my favorite line:
"Playing the villain, baby, just like you want. I try to give you everything you want."
Angelina Jolie is amazing. 

Day 1: Your favorite song

My favorite song is The Kill by 30 Seconds to Mars. I love it. I only really listen to this song when I'm upset or angry. It's perfect for that.When I first started to listen to this song, its cause I was feeling really down about myself and this song just let me release some of that self hatred. And it still works for that reason. And I know that's why I love this song. It's my favorite because I can just release so much emotion by listening and singing along. This song has helped me get through the worst of times. I don't know what I would do without this song.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8yvGCAvOAfM

"Come break me down, bury me, bury me. I am finished with you. Look at my eyes, you're killing me, killing me. All I wanted was you."

Its such a beautiful song...if you can relate to it.

Here We Go Again!

So...I know I sorta fell behind on the last 30 day challenge, and my goal for this one is to actually post every day, but then again it's called a challenge for a reason. I just really like to do them. Its very thought provoking...and totally a time waster...but it's an outlet of expression, and I love it! So...here I go again. =) This months challenge, any one care to join?

Day 30: One thing you're excited for

In all honesty, I'm not really excited for anything. I don't know why but things just aren't too exciting. So...I really don't know what else to put in this post. I mean I try to be excited for things but really I'm not. My life is too boring to be exciting. I'm kinda lame like that. 

Day 29: Five weird things that you like

1.) Eating pickles with chocolate syrup. I love it! Haha! Its a lot better than it sounds. =)
2.) All things Dinosaurs! Especially little plastic Dino toys! And Dino chicken nuggets! And Dino fruit snacks!!! I love Dinos! =) 
3.) Robots! I don't know why...but I wish I had one. It would be awesome!!! I would name him Gregory. I like that name. And it would be cool cause then he could talk in his robot voice. I really want a robot! =D
4.) Wearing outfits where everything matches. Like super detailed matching. Like spend hundreds on it. I like doing that. Its kinda my OCD. I've spent hours putting together an outfit. More than the average high maintenance girl. 
5.) Gamer Guys. ;) I like them...even though they are a little weird. I think its super cute when guys get way into their games. I can watch a guy game for hours...trust me, I know. As long as they don't let it become an obsession, I like them. They are just weird...it a totally cute way! =)

Day 28: Some where you'd like to move to or visit

I would love to live in San Francisco.

To live in a cute little place like this one.

To ride this around the city.

To visit the wharf whenever I want.

Spend hours in this building and others like it.

True Story. <3

Day 27: A quote you try and live by

I don't know what it is about this quote...but it makes me like myself more. It reminds me that I'm a beautiful mess. I guess it kinda fuels my behavior. It makes me think about being fun, having fun, and loving what your doing. The way my mind works, and thinks, and understands things is different, its not normal, but its my own personal genius. It works as an inspiration, to be who I am not who others think I should be.   

Day 26: Things you like and dislike about yourself

I think by now that everyone knows I love the fact that I'm a narcissist. I think that really annoys people because its about all I talk about, and I think that just makes me like it more.
I hate how forgetful and flaky I can be, I don't mean to be, but its true, I'm just so easily distracted that I forget stuff.
I love that I'm a people person. The fact that I can interact with people easily makes my life so much more better.
I hate that I cant sit still very well. I just get all anxious and I have to move around...I pace a lot, and its super annoying.
I love that I'm a giving person. I'm a gift giver...I love to buy things for people just to show them I care...or that I was thinking about them.
I hate that I'm not good with money, I cant save it at all, I'm an impulsive buyer...I just have to keep buying things.
I love that I'm a dominate type person...it makes it so that I get what I want.
But...
Sometimes I hate it, because its incredibly intimidating for people and they don't know how to handle me.
I love that I'm assertive and I go for what I want.
But...
Sometimes I hate it, because I act before I think and that doesn't always turn out well at all.

Day 25: Something you're currently worrying about

This seems to be a reoccurring theme in my life lately but I'm so worried for my future. It used to be something that I was so excited for. Like back in high school, I couldn't wait. Probably because everything seemed like it was gonna happen, like I was gonna do something with my life, because people kept saying "you have your whole life ahead of you and you can do what you want with it." But as my future become my present, I realized people lie. They make it seem easy, but its not. And I feel like quitting because this isn't exactly what I expected, and I had plans and goals, and as my deadlines for these goals come closer, I realize I am no where close to completing them...and that worries me so much. It makes me wonder what happened to the little girl with the big ambitions. I'm worried about what my future is going to be like...and I'm worried that it is going to be no where close to what I expected of it. And I think I'm most worried because if these things don't happen then I don't know what to do.

Day 24: five words/phrases that make you laugh

1.) “It's gonna be legend-... wait for it... and I hope you're not lactose intolerant because the second half of that word is DAIRY!” -Barney
2.) "Kids..." -Ted (Whenever he's about to start a story.)
3.) "I love a scotch that's old enough to order its own scotch." -Robin
4.) "Just a Burger? Just a burger. Robin, it's so much more than 'just a burger.'" -Marshall
5.) "You sonofabitch" -Lily

Day 23: Something that you miss

I really miss this. Spending time with these people. My Uncle Johnny, he died when I was 12, and I miss spending time with him. We would spend our time playing or watching Buffy, he was sorta the reason why I loved that show, it was our thing. And I miss that. I also miss spending time with my Dad, the dinners, the lunch dates, the weekends over the there, and all the time we spent together. I miss him. Then there is my little brother, yes he's still alive, but I don't see him as often cause I don't have time but I miss being around him and just being silly and having fun! So when it all comes down to it I miss these times.

Day 22: Your academics

So this one sorta confuses me...is it like specifically asking about my personal academics? Because I don't really have much of a list for that. I mean I graduated high school in '09...which makes me feel old...but I still feel young cause I just finished my 3rd year of college, and I think I have one more year before I graduate, which will give a BA in Psychology. So really my academics are not really impressive, yet. =)

Day 21: How you hope your future will be like

I never really pictured myself to be a family based woman. I was always more of a career based woman. I like to think I'm driven and that I'll have that career. I picture myself one day to have a career as a research psychologist, in the field of evolutionary psychology. I also want a masters in counseling. So that I can do that in my free time. I hope that I'll have a guy waiting for me when I get home, my future husband who will be the love of my life and my best friend. I want him to want to listen to me talk. To always be there for me. To believe in me. To love me. And to let me be that career woman I want to be. I'm not a submissive little housewife, and he needs to understand that. I hope for a guy that does. Because what I hope for my future the most is the be the best I possibly can be in all areas of my life. 

Day 20: Your fears

Something that I fear is the future. I used to not fear it but I guess I've set myself up for the future that I desire that I think I'm afraid that it wont turn out the way I hope for. I have such high expectations for myself that I think I'm afraid of failing, of not being good enough for my future. I'm afraid that I wont become anything but another face in the crowd. That my future self won't be able to handle it. That I'll some how break under pressure and fail. And I fear that if I fail I won't be good enough for anyone or anything. I think that I've tricked myself into believe that I am something special and I'm afraid that if I step into the real world I'll find out that I'm not. I'm afraid of the unknown, the person I'm supposed to become. Who is she going to be? Are people going to like her? Will she be well respected? But I think I'm most afraid of not knowing if she is going to be everything I want her to be. Will I like her?

Day 19: 5 items you lust after

1.) Victorian fainting couch

2.) A coffee bar in my dinning room

3.) A retro styled kitchen

4.) Pink telephone booth

5.) A closet full of retro styled dresses

Day 18: A Problem that you have had

Well this is a difficult one to answer. Define "problem." Like being too fat for your favorite pair of pants could be a problem. Or not having enough money to buy the things you need, not the things you want, but the things you need, that's a problem too. Along with not know the answers to a test, or having to wait a few months before you favorite show returns with new episodes. Falling for a guy friend that who doesn't like you back making things awkward for him, or having that guy friend like you that you just don't like back making it awkward for you. The way I see it, life is full of problems, not always bad, think of them more as challenges that you have to figure out how to handle. That's why this is difficult for me to answer this question...unless you want me to describe to you my whole life. And I don't feel like doing that either.

Day 17: Something that your proud of

Being afraid of spiders but getting enough courage too actually hold one...yeah I'm pretty proud of that. That is something that I honestly thought I'd never do...ever. I faced a fear, held that thing a few times. I think its something worth being proud of. =)